32 days until 5k

Wasn't sure whether I'd get up and go today seeing as it's Saturday and I need to drive upstate to get my son, but it's easier for me to be extreme with a habit; breaks have a way of lasting. And the magical thing about getting up at 5:30 is that it gives you time for anything.

I was uneasy since I fasted yesterday, apart from a post-workout protein shake and some popcorn at Film Forum (went to see White Nights). I did want to try and fast track some weight loss, but mostly I just wanted a reset because I think I've been doing some eating-out-of-boredom lately and taking a day to ignore all cues seems like a good way to reset that.

But I managed to continue the slow gradual climb, and stayed on the treadmill for thirteen minutes. I HATE running. Usually around the two minute mark I start saying there's no way I can even make five minutes. I don't want to do it, I'm uncomfortable. But it ends up being a good spiritual experience as I spend the entire time praying for strength I don't possess to keep going. And every time I hit ten minutes I'm amazed. It's like everything else in my life. I feel totally incapable, but somehow, through God's grace, I manage. It's nice to have such a clear, finite, concrete example to start every day.

Weighed in at 173.8lbs this morning. Interesting that it's essentially the same negligible reduction I've had every day since I started, even though I consumed less than 1000 calories yesterday. Good reminder that it's better or the same to eat healthy rather than fast.